It's been a little over a year since my beloved Finley lost his battle with bone cancer. He was my first dog and I swear we were souls of the same heart. He was a sweet, bossy and loving golden retriever, who never left my side in anything.
I'm crying as I write this, because I miss him so much. I still have his brother, Jakey who is sitting at my feet. I thought it would get easier as time passed, but it hasn't. My daughter thought we should seek out a pet loss counselor to see if they can help.
I lost a part of myself that day I said goodbye as I held him at the vet's office. I sat with him for awhile after with him in my arms. I keep his box on my nightstand with his pawprint and his baby.
Maybe it will get better someday, I don't know but I do know that after Jakey goes to heaven to meet Finley that I won't have another dog. This is too painful.
Hug your babies today and kiss them on their sweet cheeks. I love you Finley.